I always thought that when I got to my 50’s and my kids were all gone from the coop, that I would find some respite from worrying so much…but to my dismay, it has been just the opposite.

I have never worried so much in my life! I’m not sure if it’s because I have lived life and realize all of the pitfalls that our children could fall into, but feel helpless to protect them or if it’s just my age! When our children were small, we controlled almost everything about them..what they would wear, what they would eat, where they would go…and that availed a certain amount of peace.

But now that they are grown, rightly so, we have no more control over those things. Our help is always close by, if they ask, but to allow them to make their own path is the better choice. As they make mistakes and choose difficult paths, they will grow as a result.

As a Christian, I know that it is wrong for me to worry so much. I know in my heart that I am to give over to God those things that cause me concern and allow Him to carry that burden. I know that peace comes from letting God in on that part of my life…but what do I do? I keep that part to myself most times….hoarding it…allowing it to creep into my peace..mostly at night when the busyness is gone..darkness has come..and the night is silent…no t.v…no chores..no errands..no plans..

That’s when Satan is his most effective on me. He knows when my brain becomes idle, that it leaves room for worry. He knows the trigger points for my worry as well…and as soon as the t.v. is turned off and my head hits the pillow…the thoughts invade….
I grab my pillow, go to the family room and turn on the t.v. to listen to reruns of news or sitcoms…anything to fill my thoughts and crowd out my worries..

I pray that I would be able to do as Christ instructs and lay my burdens at His feet and worry less….and to remember that the God who created the universe and everything in it…cares for me..and cares for those I love..and is in control of everything on this planet..There is nothing that happens that He is not keenly aware of.

Matthew 6:27-29
Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are.
Proverbs 12:25
Worry weighs a person down; an encouraging word cheers a person up.
Philippians 4:6-7
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.


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